Really old school, really nice :) Have You Ever - S Club 7 :)
Yesterday, 090911, was a really nice day :)
Although it was really rather unproductive with my revision and all, I had the chance to witness a photoshoot of a couple in AJ, chanced upon a cute tailor shop named Romantic Tailor, eat breakfast with Mum and Dad, run, study org chem, take photos with L.Toh in the TOILET, drink KOI and eat a blueberry cheese tart :D hahahahahahh :D Awesome right :D I shall let the pictures do the talking! :) Back to org chemmmmm ^^
:) Can't help but smileeee :)
REALLY BEAUTIFUL RIGHTTTTT ^^
We are sooo lucky, L.Toh :)
CUTE OR NOT XD *thickskinnnnnn*
the one is Blue is non other than the Fantastic Awesome Jason :D
An awesomeeeeeeeee really really awesome song introduced by Viviannnnnnn :)
Therapy by All Time Low :)
Enjoy :D heehee! :D
As usual, I'm gonna repeat it again. Time Flies. Really really fast :D It's already Fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D hahahahhahaha!
I'm loving everyday, I'm really enjoying every single day. but the fear of having to face exams in a matter of days, is really scaryyyyyy :S
ohwellllll :) Jiayou everyone :) No matter what, Do your best! Leave no regrets ok! :)
Yesterday is a awesomeeee day! :) I met up with Vivian, Malcolm, Roy and Shiwei to study at Viv's place. with the Coolest Purpose: To Celebrate Malcolm's 18th birthday in the evening :D hahahhahahaha! :D Hope you liked it ah :P
We studiedddd - i'll spare the descriptions- and headed over to Clementi Mall :D ahahhah we ate, Fish and Co :D and surprised (hopefully!:P) Mchoo with a really really cute Stitch cake haahhahha :)
Viv and I were supposed to have tuition at 7.30pm at Comet. haha, but we were still gobbling down our food at 7.30pm :D like, seriouslyzxzx rightttttt XD
hahahahah! I really enjoyed today. the company, my friends, the laughter, the love :D
everything's innocent and pure, and beautiful :) lucky right :D yesssssssssssssss!!!
hahahhhah :) today's gonna be a good good good day too :)
I do not know how to put some words across to you. I have no idea why myself. So if you're reading this, hopefully you know this is what i would like to tell you.
I hope you would always have the Courage and Strength to face and overcome the challenges and tough times you may face. I hope you would always meet people who would impart lessons to you to become a better person. I hope you would always be able to do things which could make you smileeee :) I hope you would reach your goals and that you would always have faith in yourself and the person you would like to become in the future. I hope you would always stay healthy and stay very very very happy everyday. Happy Birthday :)
yesterday, the went back to Bbss and met many many friends :) it was a great great feeling :) and the Bbss feeling is still there! :) it's so cool mannnn! :P after that, the ultra brotherly gang went to Der's house to partyyyyy!!:P Heeee!! :) we watched Little Red Riding Hood which totally scared me inside out everytime the chao werewolf appear!!! Hahahahahaha but it was superrrr fun!! :) and soooo *love*!! :P hee hee! :) yay love you all very much :)
it's inside you. You need not change what you are on the outside to appear elegant, because if you are, people can tell. Just be yourself, and look out to those who love you for who you are and the person you would like to become. Don't change because others are changing. :) JIAYOU :)
You've taught me that once I've let go of something, it would never return to be the same again. You've taught me that at different points in my life, i have to make certain decisions which may not be what i hoped i made after a very long time. You've taught me that by letting go, i can reach out to hold on to something new.
You've taught me that, To Love, is not to feel sad when i don't get anything in return, is not to feel disappointed when you don't see my efforts, but to smile when you smile :)
You've taught me a number of things, but i guess you would probably never know :)
Because this is life. You got to get yourself together, You got stuck in a moment, and You can't get out of it.
I will get out of it :D hahahhahah :D awesome songgggg, introduced by YEN!
Title is Stuck In A Moment by U2 :)
ohhhyeahhh:D heeehee!
the week has ended! it started off really busy, and has ended to be even more busy.
VJ MJ papers all by next weeek! super lot of homeworkkkkk!
But I'm happy :) Somehow this sort of busy-ness is kind of enjoyable :)
aww manzx i think i'm in <3 with studying hahahahahhha :D:D
truncated timetable would be starting next week and lessons are going to end really early! prelims are coming in approximately 25 days and As, around 80? :)
jiayou everyoneeeee :)
Don't let go just yet, Don't give up, PUSH ON :)
tomorrow's a packed dayyyyyy! JIAYOUUUUUU :)
there are things which need not have to be said in order to be known.
it hurts. And even if you are mean by nature, at least keep your comments to yourself and not let it affect others. One day, when someone pulls you down and hits you like how you've hit others, or should i say, your friends, at least you can still feel proud that you managed to resist the urge to inflict pain and hurt.
Hahahahahaha this awesome song is playing on The Gold Breakfast Show in the car nowww! I told mum and dad that Me gonna play this song during my wedding and 老爸笑我!! TSK!!
Anyway it is the beginning of the week again!! :) sooo fast! :) hee hee! :D I'm gonna bus home today :):) TODAY'S GONNA BE AN AWESOME DAY :D
Yesterday evening after maths timed practice, was Council Farewell!! It was organised superrrr awesomely by the superrrr awesome 28th cutesies!! :D i did not feel sad. But more of 舍不得. The good bye we gave each other felt different although we were still going to see each other and all. Haha :) i think we're all silly and funny people :D
On the way to college nowww :D and I've finally figured out how to blog with yellow monkeyyy on my phone :P zhai right :P hee hee! HAPPY WEEKENDS <3
YAAAAA. Focus la!
seriously man, No distractions! Especially not because of the same reason againnnnn.
Today, physics and maths tests.
awww man. Maths was horrible. tsk tsk tsk!
my head hurts :D
my nose and windpipe don't wanna listen to me either! XD
shall sleep.
gooodnight :D
I cannot really feel the 'ended' feel, although term of office has ended.
Hmm. And I did not feel as sad as I thought I would when Invest ended yesterday.
More surprisingly, I felt like a new person :D
Someone who's different from what she was at the beginning of last year :P
I know I can only say for myself, and I would say I've changed in mentality and attitude towards things I commit to and decide to be respoonsible for. This council term, began rather bleakly, with much uncertainty on how I would fare, what I would learn, who I would build strong bonds with, how I would overcome my fears and weaknesses, how I would improve, who I would disappoint, who I would make feel proud. Along the way, there were some who came and go, there were some who came and stayed, there were some who remained where they were. Each of these people, made a difference to me. And I would like to sincerely thank you, for impacting me, and letting me learn something from you which I probably would not learn from anywhere else :D Remain awesome, and always keep in mind our focus now, Alevels. To my teachers, especially Mr Chia and Ms Zhu, the way you talked to me everytime, and the way you encouraged us everytime, made my heart sink, and my eyes welled up with tears inevitably. Power Words, Power Energy, Power Strengthhhhh :D Thank you very much :D
:D Lets' Keeep Going :D Once a 27th, Always a 27th :D
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i'm really easily distracted. SO SHUT UP AND SHOOOOOOOO!
Many times, I feel like I'm spiraling down down down downnnnnn into a deeeeeep bottomless pit.
That scaryyy, alone, insecure feeling is so horrible I wish I would never have to face ever again.
But if you come back again, I won't chase you away. I will face you and box you into one gazillionzxz pieces. SO BEWARE YOU POK.
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Went for service on Academic Excellence at Mark's church yesterday. Heart of God Church :D
It was really awesome :D:D I'm proud to say that I have more confidence in myself now!!!
Because I believe that I can do it. My life and my path, it's not the outcome that has yet to come that matters, but what I do now that counts.
But I admit I do fear that I lose this faith, this strength, and this confidence. Uncertainty.
Anywayyyyyy,
OH COME ON. HAHAHAHAHAH :) JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUU <3
ahahahahah after that, the Phuas had an awesomeeeeeeeeeee buffet dinner at Intercontinental Hotel, Olive Tree :D
wahhhh i tell you, i ate crazily. I think I turned into a Monster!! :O and Papa's expressions and uncomfort after the dinner was hilarious. He kept going: "Mum, no more buffets. No more!", with his eyes squinting and all XDXD
hhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaahahh!
Some photos!!:D
It looks weird here. BUT I TELL YOU, IT WAS SUPER ULTRAAAAA AWESOME :P NO JOKE!!!!
Yes, we all have priorities in life.
And today, I ask myself this simple question, What are my priorities in life?
and the next, What do I care for, love, and hold most close to heart?
The answers leave me thinking. My fickleness challenges me to be decisive and to answer myself.
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I'm really thankful for what I have :D My family, friends, college, house, books, cool pens, pretty clothes, opportunities, chances, challenges, shoes, fooooood, chee cheong fan, kimchi, curtains, Jansport blue black <3, rubber bands, fishballs, phoneeee, music, freedom to do many many many many many things, ............... :D
and I'm lucky to be born in this country, in this family of Phuas :D heehee.
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Andddddddddddddddd,
I think I really love running :) hahhhaahhahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahaahahahhah!
that feeling and discomfort stays in there, and i can feel my brain cells jumbling up and moving out of place.
So, where do i find myself when i feel as if i am losing myself?
where do You find yourself when You feel as if You are losing yourself?
Alright, I admit, I do not like feeling Disappointed. I care very much about how people think of me as a girl, as a friend, as a person. I am fickle and do not really know what I want even if I do not have much choices. I tend to succumb to pressure from almost everyone easily even if there's a burning faith in me about something. I am horrible at dealing and confronting my feelings. I lose myself when I think too much. I say things which mean the total opposite of what I hope things would turn out to be. I do not really know who I am sometimes, and so, I'll ask myself.
ahhhhhh. I really wanna box you, pzt. Bish.
grrr.
Anywayyyyyy, I loveeeeeeeeeeeee Today, 4th July 2011!!:D Thank You, 0810! <3
MYCT is over. Officially, today. Ohwell, the process was not a good one. I had lots of moments of insecurity and uncertainty for my answers and my concepts.
okay, you know that awful feeling of knowing that you're not going to do well yet you..................... ohwell :)
After exams, we all became kids again :P hahahaha excited and phew-ing in the heart.
one week, finallyyyyyyyyyy over :D
We headed to Northpoint for lunch - after much contemplating and discussing like crazyyyyy :P It was good la :D I like the feeling when we sit down together to eat :D heehee!
We headed to LOT1, the awesome place after that! The West Siders, Lena and Kun Xian :PPPPPP hahhhahahh wooo hooo ^^ so zhai right! Main purpose was to go there for Fries :P hahaah we window shopped a lot around that cute mall and went for our Fries and Mos-Milk Tea after that :D
Awesomeeeeee :D
Some things do not repeat once they happen.
Some things do not come back once they leave.
Some things do not play over once they are gone.
Some things do not stay the same once they change.
Alright, I'm gonna blog about someone who is really attractive. And stunning :D
hahahhhaah, honestly, I did not have any idea of who she is until i went online to search =.=
Rachel Bilson, Auguest 1981, Actress. Style Director for Sunglass Hut and her influence is said to be a 'global phenomenon'. WOW :D Some familiar dramas and movies she acted in are How I Met Your Mother, O.C., The Last Kiss and Jumper :D
:D hahah, alright, she's the beautiful model for the Magnum ice cream advertisement which always plays on the television like freeeee oneeee lorrrrrrr :P
Sometimes, we just have to be honest about our feelings.
Because once you lose the chance to express it, it never comes out as easily as before, as confident as before, as acceptable as before.
Sometimes, feelings hurt. They may be really immense, they may be just like a touch. How you deal with these feelings would determine how you as a person would change, how your relationships with those related would change, and how your life would change.
Sometimes, you feel like crying and just stopping at where you are because of feelings. They slow you down, they distract you, they jumble up your thoughts and mess up your priorities. They may be strong or perhaps rather raw, but they can create an impact on you, and your emotions.
Sometimes, we just have to be brave and accept this feelings personally. Because they belong to you. They are your priceless possessions which no one has the rights to covet or take away. So, we should face them ourselves.
Hello TKY! :D
Happy Birthday :D
You're an awesome person to be with
a superrrr good House Captain, i'm really really proud and honoured to be your Jaguarian!!!:D
and you're a guy with lotsssss of charisma i bet you do not realise it yourself sometimes :D hahahaha! :)
Baby, its over, we both know, lets go forward.
I love you, but in a different way, I love you, forever.
Now that we've come to the end of a story and I know that it's gonna be hard for me.
Might hurt some, not too much, but I gotta let it wait.
As the world turns around and we go different places, new things, new dreams, new faces.
Wanna shake up, when we break up, but we keep our memories.
I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Baby, it's better, and I wan't you, to be happy.
Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
It ain't easy the more and the more you try.
So there'll be cheating, better saving, but not me and my boy.
We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting.
So when we go nuts, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.
I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine
Have you heard there's this thing that heals, and it's called time
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
I know, my heart will break, a new me will fill this space.
I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Lyrics from http://www.directlyrics.com/pixie-lott-turn-it-up-lyrics.html
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
(Than wanting more)
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why'm I feelin' like there's something I missed
There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm... (More that I'm)
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure
there's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more to life
More to, more to, more to life
(There's gotta be more to life) More to, more to, more to life
There's gotta be more
More to life
This is cute right!! :D
To different people, Love means a different thing.
To me, i do not really know what it means. But i would like it to be sincere, truthful and i am sure it is something happy and blessed. hhahahha okay i don't know what i'm talking about here.
ohwell, i really cannot get myself sometimes. There's this lack of understanding of myself, which i cannot seem to have control over. Overwhelming. Sometimes, yes.
I enjoyed today really :D It was a goood experience, one which i know i will never be able to go through again :)
Bigggg thank you to Ah Yi and Uncle Phang for inviting me to join in the expedition! :D
heehee! :) Thank You :D
Basically, we started off today somewhere near West Coast area! :D
Had breakfast at the market nearby - Fish Ball Noodles and Dou Hua Shui! :D
We began at the West Coast area, and walked towards Jurong, followed by Clementi and finally Bukit Timah :D
One cute thing we laughed about was how Ah Gu (Uncle Hua Sin) placed his Parang in his bag, allowing the "dagger" part to stick out! Of course it was wrapped in a cloth, but still, it was sooo funny because it looked sooo scary :S hahahahha:D:D
The first part of the journey was rather smooth and manageable, mainly because it was all flat road, and maybe a little of slope :D
hahahhh! until we reached this part which looked somewhat like a mini-valley.
So we were all at one side, and had to cross over to the other, provided we cross the "muddy challenge" successfully :P
IT WAS SCARY ok! hahahahah! and Jason swooooshed in superrrrr fast his whole leg was seeped into the mud! WE WERE LIKE: WOAH!!!!
HAHAHHAAHAHAHAH!!!!!!
Followed up, we walked through a lot of business buildings - Urban Singapore :P
and finally came to the park connector of iforgotwhere :D
Till now, I've only touched on the first part of the journey which is definitely relatively smooth compared to later :P
hahhhahah!
I shall touch on 4 parts i like most about the later part of the journey! :D
1) The Bridge at Jurong area! It was actually the railway track itself, but is a bridge as well since it is very very very high from the ground. We were all walking superrrrr slow while crossing it although it looked safe and almost impossible for someone to fall off. hahahahah! :D It has a realllyyyyyy scenic and beautiful of the landscape of Jurong area (I suppose) as well :) PRETTYYYYYY :D:D
2) The small vegetations we saw in the jungle/forest. hahahahha! I never knew and did not expect there were actually people growing vegetation and probably even living in those areas! It was extremely interesting and kind of gave me a deeper understanding of how Old Singapore was probably like before all the urbanisation :D
3) The darkkkk darkkkkk tunnels we walked through!! :D Especially the 2nd one!
The second one was MUDDY TO THE MAX. all WET AND MUDDY. Challenge was, it was really dark! almost PITCH DARK, except for the light at the entrance and the exit at the other side, and our torches. We all walked on one side of the railway track in single-file (for once, we went back like we were young! :D niceeee feeling <3)! and Ah Gu (Uncle Hua Sin) decided we try the Army Style. so he commanded, "left right left right...". Initially, the pace was fine, but it became faster and faster we totally went ahhhhhhhh! :P hahahaha I held on the Jason's bag like a chewing gum ok! hahahahahh Thanks laaa, Cousin :P heehee!! There was a lot of laughter, and everyone was happy :) One more thing i felt it was really nice, was the way we trusted each other so much, and cared for each other. Perhaps it is because we are a family, making all these pretty normal. But, I'm grateful, really :)
4) The ending part of the trail! :D at the end, we reached the active railway track, and there were many people there. Families, young children, couples, groups of friends, individuals, photographers :D and the Sun seemed so bright and the feeling was good :D I do not know what is making me like this part of the trail, but i guess it was a mixture of a lot of feelings and emotions. The trek was really really awesome because of my family, the people we met on the way, the scenery and view, the muddy muddy waters, the insects, the flowers and plants sooo huge and beautiful I was snapping photos like crazyyyy, the Railway track itself, the sense of accomplishment upon completing the whole trek. I could feel a tinge of sadness, even now, at the thought that the railway track, and most of the areas we trekked today would be removed and replaced by high rised buildings and urban sculptures. I have certainly not lived in this country for long enough to build a strong relationship and love for the railway track, like many older Singaporeans and probably frequent travellers of Singapore and Malaysia have. To me, it is a first of coming so close in contact with this historical part of Singapore/Malaysia, and it is really really a very very very beautiful place. I would like very very much to share it with the people i love, because i am sure you'll love it too :) I'm sure all my experiences today would be kept in my heart and with Yellow Monkeyyy for a really long time :)
alright enough of my words, here are a few photos i really like a lot :D
Take all my vicious words
And turn them into something good
Take all my preconceptions
And let the truth be understood
Take all my prized possessions
Leave only what I need
Take all my pieces of doubt
And let me be what's underneath
Courage is when you're afraid
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain
But you keep on living anyway
We all have excuses why
Living in fear something in us dies
Like a bird with broken wings
It's not how high he flies
But the song he sings
Courage is when you're afraid
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain
But you keep on living anyway
It's not how many times you've been knocked down
It's how many times you get back up
Courage is when you've lost your way
But you find your strength anyway
Courage is when you're afraid
Courage is a burning faith
Courage is when you make a change
And you keep on living anyway
You keep on moving anyway
You keep on giving anyway
You keep on loving anyway
No one's perfect. That's the truth. We all have flaws which somehow cannot be hidden no matter how hard we try.
And that is alright :)
Because when someone loves you, and that person tells you, he/she means it.
That person points out the beauty in your flaws and loves you for who you are and who you would like to become.
"Don’t be afraid to be a fool. Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying yes begins things. Saying yes is how things grow. Saying yes leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say yes."
ALRIGHT. So i'm contemplating on whether I should go for the REALLY COOL TREKKING trip on Sunday morning with my Aunt and family, because MYCT begins the very next day.
SO HOWWWWW?
It would be a once in a lifetime experience!!! :D
and definitely would be an unforgettable learning experience and bonding session with my awesome familyyyyyyy.
MYCT TSK! you're soooo evil.
Why are you RIGHT AFTER the 'holidays'
ahhhhh :D heee, but i still love you laa, since you have the power to make me feel all so tensed up and anxious, it simply shows how important you are to me in my life :D
so what is this? A love-hate relationship for something which would not be left out in all students' life, Exams :D
SMILE DARLING ;)
'what you don't understand is I'll catch a grenade, and a watermelon plus 3 jack fruits and 1 honeydew with lots of dew for yaaaa!'
