it is really not easy :(
while i keep telling myself to find things to do to not brood over this issue,
my brain and heart seem to be meeting lots of obstacles while trying to
cooperate -.- is it because i do not know the reason? should i ask? should i wait?
should i just throw everything away? No.
it just doesn't work that way. ohwelllllllllll. what a sickening thing AHHHHHHH!
please give me an answer before i lose control.


give me a reason, before i blow your house down.