you have unpredictable reactions
which sometimes come as a surprise, sometimes as a disappointment

just like buses.
whenever we hope a certain bus would come quickly, it just wouldn't come. instead,
the bus which you waited sooo badly previously came in just a few seconds.
hahaha :)

all so weird

JIAYOU :)
i'm not afraid of challenges anymore, because i'm going to face them like how i face korean dramas. lean forward, smile, laugh, become addicted :D

it matters, you just do not care about it. it hurts, you just do not feel it. it loves, you just do not see it. it sacrifices, you just do not understand it. it all happens not because of it, but because of you, yet you'll never know it.

today, i felt the pain of being doubted by someone i love and who's encouragements i cherish. i didn't realise the importance of this person's encouragement until today's incident. it was painful and i couldn't help it.

haha :)

i had a really really fun and happy time with Ru Jun today at KFC :P
thanks ah :D heehee. we ate while discussing our song proposal. and oh yes,
crapped totally :D

BEST THIING: I MET RYAN THE CUTE LITTLE BOY TODAYZXZ!!! :D
AND COINCIDENTALLY MET ZHE YU AT UNITED SQUARE TOO!

HAHAHHA! and i really find Xuan Xuan's hair mega cool.
it's like, really messy, really messy, really messy. but it's cool. somehow :P
YOU BETTER CUT IT SOON THOUGH :D

love has so much power that it can bring you to the extremes of sadness and happiness
what can ever beat that
i don't see another thing more powerful

a little fluctuating
a little on and off
a little here and there
a little happiness and cluelessness
a little bit faster
a little bit of pondering why it suddenly stops
a little more on why it happens
a little too weird
a little disappointing :(
a little like a miracle for these to happen because of you :)


happy boxing day :)

Sleepless Child by Michael Learns To Rock :D


heard this song in the car on FM90.5 :D
mummy was driving, and she said: "ohhh i love this song!"
hahah, i was initially listening to a Lin Junjie's song, but something told
me to TAKE THAT EARPIECE DOWN AND LISTEN TO MUMMY'S FAVOURITE SONG.
so i obeyed that voice!:D
hahahhaa! and yes, Santa's present indeed!!:D
the song was one which i heard somewhere somehow before. and it sounded really
familiar.
I asked mum the title, and she said MILKY WAY.
i was, okay.... hahah! and asked ARE YOU SURE IT'S MILKY WAY?!??!
because it seriously did not sound like a song with that title :P

and she said the 2 magical words: "or maybe it is "SLEEPING CHILD"."
hahha, so i listened to the lyrics as carefully as i could, and YES!!
the chorus did repeat Sleeping Child at least twice!!
it was a more probable title :P

a really meaningful song which i guess all parents would like to sing
to their children :)

heeeee! and i was reminded of someone covering me with a blanket this morning.
i dunno if it was mummy or papa. hmm, but this song and that incident, haha
coincides so coincidentally!!:)
honestly, i'm touched :) but i guess i would never say this to my parents.
not now :)

Merry Merry Merry Merry Christmas :)

如果人生能够重来一遍，
我会选择同样的一条路，
过着这种平凡人的生活，
由于巧合而与你察肩而过，
因为缘分所以认识了你，
交到象你这么好的朋友，
与你产生一种奇妙的默契，
让你的微笑成为世界的焦点
:)

i do not know how to describe this feeling. afraid of losing it?
overwhelmed by insecurity.

HAPPY 平安夜！:)

CHRISTMAS IS COMING :)
STAY HAPPY EVERYONEEEEEEEEEEE!

your appearance was a surprise
your existence is a bliss
your friendship is a treasure
your smile is a wonder
everything about you is just so special
just the way you are
my world revolves and my heart stops
my eyes smile and my words run out
because you're amazing
just the way you are :)

MCFLY! OHMYZX! :D



Every day feels like a Monday
There is no escaping from the heart ache
Now I gotta put it back together coz its always better late than never
Wishing I could be in California
I wanna tell you when I'll call ya
I could've fallen in love
I wish I'd fallen in love
Out of our lives and out of time wishing I could be with you
To share the view
We could've fallen in love
Whoa oooh
Whoa oooh
Waking up to people talking
And it's getting later every morning
Now I realise it's nearly midday
And I've wasted half my life to throw it away
Singing every day should be a new day
To make you smile and find a new way
Of falling in love yeah of falling in love
Out of our lives and out of time wishing I could be with you
To share the view
Oh we could've fallen in love
Whoa oooh
Whoa oooh
We could've fallen in love
Whoa oooh
Whoa oooh

Sick of waiting I can't take it gotta tell ya (X8!)
I can't take another night on my own
So I take a breath and I pick up the phone
She said oooh oooh ooooh ooooh
She said oooh oooh ooooh ooooh
She said oooh oooh ooooh ooooh
We could've fallen in love
We could've fallen in love
Oh yeah falling in love
We could've fallen in love
Falling in love
Oooooh
We could've fallen in love

网:　张信哲



爱 还不了
所以无可救药
多少人在结束后
用遗憾寻找

梦 抓不到
所以谁都想要
而命运的网
有能解开多少

以为 一切得到 却不知在网里绕
失去和拥有 谁能分辨得好

谁不想飞得比天高
谁不想挣脱天网的牢
最华丽的情调 比不上那微笑
很多时候我们需要依靠

谁不想飞得比天高
谁不想世界为你而绕
最单纯的感动却忘了去寻找
拥有了世界却输掉了拥抱

有什么值得炫耀

awesome song
superb voice
meaningful lyrics

:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATHER!
14th December 2010

Currently at tiong bahru mac due to a miscommunication between Mum and me -.-
but ohwell, i love this feeling of sitting in a notsofamiliar environment,
listening to niceeee music, doing my dear homework, and bonding with yellow-monkeyyy :)

solitude, thanks for being here :)

i came home today, and happened to catch a little of this channel U show about
helping realising the dreams of those who do not have the ability to do it
themselves. It suddenly struck me, that i'm really lucky. to have a happy family,
to be able to live in a place so comfortable and having no need to worry about
my next meal.

yet, i still had one million and one requests of this and that.

evil, really.

it's only when you lose it, you realise how precious and important it is to you.
unfortunately, by then it's all too late. because changes happen all the time,
and do not wait for you.

we just got to keep going :)

39 minutes past 12 midnight.
i'm not a single bit sleepy.
thanks to all the day-naps.

time flies. truly. i know, i've said this at least a million times.
but it's true! so true! haha :)

i cannot believe i'm gonna be 18 next year.
that's really, like more grown up?
now, when i reflect back, what have i been doing all these 17 years?
seriouslyyyyyyyyyy!
somehow, i seem to have found my motivation to study.
it's like, i really want to do it, so as to keep up with something.
but i don't really get it either.

hmm. zhi ting, jiayou :)
people around you may make you feel distracted, discouraged, but don't
forget you're living your life once, and there would never be a chance for
a second round. you don't want to look back oneday, and regret for not
doing better. push on! it takes pain to know the taste of happiness :)

ohman how much i love to self-motivate XD

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY DESIREE TEE :)
thankyou for everything you've given me since the day we looked at each other, smiled,
and became friends :)
you're one really special person and important friend in my life!
Thank you for being you, and being such an awesome awesome superrr fantastic
chao-ji-super-hao-peng-you!!! i love you!!
keep smiling! and stay strong always :)



Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're the reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

Katy Perry, you're really awesome :)

i know i would never put this across to you, but you are probably the best guy i would ever meet in my life. for this, i'm really grateful to God for giving me this chance. thankyou:)


just
be happy
always

just this once
-
i hate to have regrets. i know the only person i can rely on is myself. the only
way for me to be able to rely on myself is to study hard, and do well.
people always say the only way for you to be happy, is to treat yourself better. but i know clearly i was not and will not be happy everytime i hurt you, make you cry,
and make you feel unworthy of yourself. seriously, i know all these. so why
do i keep repeating the same mistakes. things just keep coming like a really strong,
horrendous, fearful tornado. so much so i often wonder whether i made right
decisions when i know i should never think of anything that begins with 'if'. because they just make me feel awful and worse. life's weird. and it's really
getting out of hand for me. i do not know how to handle everything when people
around me do not understand how i feel although i know i'm in the wrong because
i never dared to let them know my feelings. it sucks big time. all i can say now is i know my responsibilities, and my actions in response to them will be speaking louder about myself than my feelings, my thoughts, my heart, my desires, my opinion.
so my actions, seem to be the only way out to solve all these right?

-
thankyou
thankyou

她說
林俊傑


must listen! really very very nice :)

I'M ONLY ME WHEN I'M WITH YOU :)
-TAYLOR SWIFT!




i'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground

Sometimes, i just feel that i do not know who to look for to share my thoughts.
And the reason is not because you are not someone whom i do not trust or cherish,
but because you seem extremely heavy on your shoulders already and have no space
for another load.

very chicken right. ya totally. Human nature? we are all afraid of having
others to sacrifice for us and being a burden to them.

说是缘分还是碰巧
一场特别的梦还是该收藏的回忆
欣赏还是喜欢
感激还是后悔
怀念或是想念

这一切有多重要？

selfish. that's the word i am going to describe myself now.
is it my character? the way i treat people?
if me, as a person, would cause others to get hurt, should i change?

i wish i'm a cucumber. and i just want to be wrapped with a crab stick
into a california roll now, and get eaten by a sumo.
my vision has blurred, and i do not know how to
move on without a clear signal ahead. it all just feels, lost.

and i know it's all because of me, and my awful habits.

for this, phua zhi ting, you really suck big time
X1000000000n.

PROCASTINATION.
Yeah manzx, that's what i'm really good at :S

I've not done much for homework, I have not done my study plan for this holiday.
2 MAJOR THINGS. alright, i really need the motivation to buck up. i know,
at this time, i need to self-motivate. i must!
come on zhiting. jiayou. you rock x10 :D
hahhhhaha XDXD

ohwells :)

Today, i came across this really talented south korean guitarist :)
his name is Sungha Jung. Thanks to ANG who posted a video of him playing on
facebook! :D
he's really really talented! and is only 14 this year! :)
heee!
Song: More Than Words :)
He really plays it with lots of feelings! and i cannot help but recall all those
memories of Sarawak OCIP trip:)


it's not the time to give up,
but the time to push on and move on :)

当你 - 王心凌


:)

the weather is really unpredictable these days.
like a monster. yet, it's really sweeeeet cause it becomes coool at times :D