Unspoken Thoughts :)

At times, i really feel like boxing myself. facebook is horrible :( because it is addictive =.= aww man. how is brain so easily affected by this thing. Anyway, i am lagging behind and this is EQUALLY HORRIBLEEEE. jiayou zhiting :D push on! i keep telling myself this, and somehow i think it works :D:D heehee. because i start to smile to myself - craziness - and laugh to myself :O

i often wonder why people behave differently in front of different people, including myself. my tone, my speech, my thoughts, my actions, my attitude. They differ, although it may not be obvious to others, but i realise how they change when i speak to different people - my parents, brother, friends, teachers, strangers :D haahaa!

Perhaps it depends greatly on the impression i would like to people around me to have on me. that's why they tend to differ. is this what everyone always say, being ingenuine? such a characteristic of myself has inevitably made me doubt my principles and what i believe in - being sincere :) And very often, i get the impression that people think i am trying too hard :/
By putting myself down in such a way is so weird, and so not healthy? i have no idea why i am putting all these feelings into words now. of all times, why now? Haha :) But it seems like i have longed gotten used of feeling this way, hence i do not feel hurt or sad anymore :)

i guess this is all a blessing in disguise. Mummy used to say, "You get to experience so many things which others do not even have the chance to think about, so why dwell about things that make you feel upset and awful? Focus on the brighter things in life, smile at even the littlest thing that is given to you, because you never know of anyone out there who is yearning for what you have more than you can ever think of."