just this once
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i hate to have regrets. i know the only person i can rely on is myself. the only
way for me to be able to rely on myself is to study hard, and do well.
people always say the only way for you to be happy, is to treat yourself better. but i know clearly i was not and will not be happy everytime i hurt you, make you cry,
and make you feel unworthy of yourself. seriously, i know all these. so why
do i keep repeating the same mistakes. things just keep coming like a really strong,
horrendous, fearful tornado. so much so i often wonder whether i made right
decisions when i know i should never think of anything that begins with 'if'. because they just make me feel awful and worse. life's weird. and it's really
getting out of hand for me. i do not know how to handle everything when people
around me do not understand how i feel although i know i'm in the wrong because
i never dared to let them know my feelings. it sucks big time. all i can say now is i know my responsibilities, and my actions in response to them will be speaking louder about myself than my feelings, my thoughts, my heart, my desires, my opinion.
so my actions, seem to be the only way out to solve all these right?

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thankyou
thankyou