selfish. that's the word i am going to describe myself now.
is it my character? the way i treat people?
if me, as a person, would cause others to get hurt, should i change?

i wish i'm a cucumber. and i just want to be wrapped with a crab stick
into a california roll now, and get eaten by a sumo.
my vision has blurred, and i do not know how to
move on without a clear signal ahead. it all just feels, lost.

and i know it's all because of me, and my awful habits.

for this, phua zhi ting, you really suck big time
X1000000000n.