If You Feel Like Giving Up,

please do not :)

You Can Do It :D
and do not worry!!
We will do it together so you will never have to be alone :)

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

No Matter What -

These words don't come out easily. And does it really only take that one person for you to pull up your courage to confront your feelings?

That's When I Love You - Aslyn

Be Brave

Sometimes, we just have to be honest about our feelings.
Because once you lose the chance to express it, it never comes out as easily as before, as confident as before, as acceptable as before.

Sometimes, feelings hurt. They may be really immense, they may be just like a touch. How you deal with these feelings would determine how you as a person would change, how your relationships with those related would change, and how your life would change.

Sometimes, you feel like crying and just stopping at where you are because of feelings. They slow you down, they distract you, they jumble up your thoughts and mess up your priorities. They may be strong or perhaps rather raw, but they can create an impact on you, and your emotions.

Sometimes, we just have to be brave and accept this feelings personally. Because they belong to you. They are your priceless possessions which no one has the rights to covet or take away. So, we should face them ourselves.

but, it is not so easy. It has never been.

Happy Birthday, Kai Yuan Tan :D:D

Hello TKY! :D
Happy Birthday :D
You're an awesome person to be with
a superrrr good House Captain, i'm really really proud and honoured to be your Jaguarian!!!:D
and you're a guy with lotsssss of charisma i bet you do not realise it yourself sometimes :D hahahaha! :)

Jiayou always :D:D

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYY :)

Turn It Up - Pixie Lott :)

Baby, its over, we both know, lets go forward.
I love you, but in a different way, I love you, forever.
Now that we've come to the end of a story and I know that it's gonna be hard for me.

Might hurt some, not too much, but I gotta let it wait.
As the world turns around and we go different places, new things, new dreams, new faces.

Wanna shake up, when we break up, but we keep our memories.
I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Baby, it's better, and I wan't you, to be happy.

Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
It ain't easy the more and the more you try.
So there'll be cheating, better saving, but not me and my boy.
We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting.

So when we go nuts, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.
I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.

I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine
Have you heard there's this thing that heals, and it's called time
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
I know, my heart will break, a new me will fill this space.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say we're moving on and we'll be okay.

Lyrics from http://www.directlyrics.com/pixie-lott-turn-it-up-lyrics.html

May every girl be this strong :D

For Something that's Missing

There's Gotta Be More to Life - Stacie Orrico :D




I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
(Than wanting more)

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more

I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why'm I feelin' like there's something I missed

There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm... (More that I'm)
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure
there's gotta be more to life

Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more to life

More to, more to, more to life
(There's gotta be more to life) More to, more to, more to life
There's gotta be more
More to life

This is cute right!! :D
To different people, Love means a different thing.
To me, i do not really know what it means. But i would like it to be sincere, truthful and i am sure it is something happy and blessed. hhahahha okay i don't know what i'm talking about here.

ohwell, i really cannot get myself sometimes. There's this lack of understanding of myself, which i cannot seem to have control over. Overwhelming. Sometimes, yes.

Perhaps, it is in everyone. :)

Old Malayan Railway :)

CONFESSION: I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE TODAY :D

I enjoyed today really :D It was a goood experience, one which i know i will never be able to go through again :)

Bigggg thank you to Ah Yi and Uncle Phang for inviting me to join in the expedition! :D
heehee! :) Thank You :D

Basically, we started off today somewhere near West Coast area! :D
Had breakfast at the market nearby - Fish Ball Noodles and Dou Hua Shui! :D
We began at the West Coast area, and walked towards Jurong, followed by Clementi and finally Bukit Timah :D

One cute thing we laughed about was how Ah Gu (Uncle Hua Sin) placed his Parang in his bag, allowing the "dagger" part to stick out! Of course it was wrapped in a cloth, but still, it was sooo funny because it looked sooo scary :S hahahahha:D:D

The first part of the journey was rather smooth and manageable, mainly because it was all flat road, and maybe a little of slope :D
hahahhh! until we reached this part which looked somewhat like a mini-valley.
So we were all at one side, and had to cross over to the other, provided we cross the "muddy challenge" successfully :P
IT WAS SCARY ok! hahahahah! and Jason swooooshed in superrrrr fast his whole leg was seeped into the mud! WE WERE LIKE: WOAH!!!!
HAHAHHAAHAHAHAH!!!!!!

Followed up, we walked through a lot of business buildings - Urban Singapore :P
and finally came to the park connector of iforgotwhere :D

Till now, I've only touched on the first part of the journey which is definitely relatively smooth compared to later :P
hahhhahah!

I shall touch on 4 parts i like most about the later part of the journey! :D

1) The Bridge at Jurong area! It was actually the railway track itself, but is a bridge as well since it is very very very high from the ground. We were all walking superrrrr slow while crossing it although it looked safe and almost impossible for someone to fall off. hahahahah! :D It has a realllyyyyyy scenic and beautiful of the landscape of Jurong area (I suppose) as well :) PRETTYYYYYY :D:D

2) The small vegetations we saw in the jungle/forest. hahahahha! I never knew and did not expect there were actually people growing vegetation and probably even living in those areas! It was extremely interesting and kind of gave me a deeper understanding of how Old Singapore was probably like before all the urbanisation :D

3) The darkkkk darkkkkk tunnels we walked through!! :D Especially the 2nd one!
The second one was MUDDY TO THE MAX. all WET AND MUDDY. Challenge was, it was really dark! almost PITCH DARK, except for the light at the entrance and the exit at the other side, and our torches. We all walked on one side of the railway track in single-file (for once, we went back like we were young! :D niceeee feeling <3)! and Ah Gu (Uncle Hua Sin) decided we try the Army Style. so he commanded, "left right left right...". Initially, the pace was fine, but it became faster and faster we totally went ahhhhhhhh! :P hahahaha I held on the Jason's bag like a chewing gum ok! hahahahahh Thanks laaa, Cousin :P heehee!! There was a lot of laughter, and everyone was happy :) One more thing i felt it was really nice, was the way we trusted each other so much, and cared for each other. Perhaps it is because we are a family, making all these pretty normal. But, I'm grateful, really :)

4) The ending part of the trail! :D at the end, we reached the active railway track, and there were many people there. Families, young children, couples, groups of friends, individuals, photographers :D and the Sun seemed so bright and the feeling was good :D I do not know what is making me like this part of the trail, but i guess it was a mixture of a lot of feelings and emotions. The trek was really really awesome because of my family, the people we met on the way, the scenery and view, the muddy muddy waters, the insects, the flowers and plants sooo huge and beautiful I was snapping photos like crazyyyy, the Railway track itself, the sense of accomplishment upon completing the whole trek. I could feel a tinge of sadness, even now, at the thought that the railway track, and most of the areas we trekked today would be removed and replaced by high rised buildings and urban sculptures. I have certainly not lived in this country for long enough to build a strong relationship and love for the railway track, like many older Singaporeans and probably frequent travellers of Singapore and Malaysia have. To me, it is a first of coming so close in contact with this historical part of Singapore/Malaysia, and it is really really a very very very beautiful place. I would like very very much to share it with the people i love, because i am sure you'll love it too :) I'm sure all my experiences today would be kept in my heart and with Yellow Monkeyyy for a really long time :)

alright enough of my words, here are a few photos i really like a lot :D

:) Back to my books :D
thank you for the day :D

You Keep On Moving Anyway :)

Courage - Orianthi ft. Lacey


Take all my vicious words
And turn them into something good
Take all my preconceptions
And let the truth be understood
Take all my prized possessions
Leave only what I need
Take all my pieces of doubt
And let me be what's underneath

Courage is when you're afraid
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain
But you keep on living anyway

We all have excuses why
Living in fear something in us dies
Like a bird with broken wings
It's not how high he flies
But the song he sings

Courage is when you're afraid
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain
But you keep on living anyway

It's not how many times you've been knocked down
It's how many times you get back up

Courage is when you've lost your way
But you find your strength anyway
Courage is when you're afraid
Courage is a burning faith
Courage is when you make a change
And you keep on living anyway

You keep on moving anyway
You keep on giving anyway
You keep on loving anyway

:)

You're Perfect :D

No one's perfect. That's the truth. We all have flaws which somehow cannot be hidden no matter how hard we try.
And that is alright :)
Because when someone loves you, and that person tells you, he/she means it.
That person points out the beauty in your flaws and loves you for who you are and who you would like to become.

:D

It is a form of love, which is beautiful :D

AH! :D

"Don’t be afraid to be a fool. Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying yes begins things. Saying yes is how things grow. Saying yes leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say yes."



- Stephen Colbert.

Adapted from fayllen.blogspot.com :D

Dilemma. What should I do, seriouslyzxzx?

ALRIGHT. So i'm contemplating on whether I should go for the REALLY COOL TREKKING trip on Sunday morning with my Aunt and family, because MYCT begins the very next day.

SO HOWWWWW?

It would be a once in a lifetime experience!!! :D
and definitely would be an unforgettable learning experience and bonding session with my awesome familyyyyyyy.

MYCT TSK! you're soooo evil.
Why are you RIGHT AFTER the 'holidays'
ahhhhh :D heee, but i still love you laa, since you have the power to make me feel all so tensed up and anxious, it simply shows how important you are to me in my life :D


so what is this? A love-hate relationship for something which would not be left out in all students' life, Exams :D

SMILE DARLING ;)

'what you don't understand is I'll catch a grenade, and a watermelon plus 3 jack fruits and 1 honeydew with lots of dew for yaaaa!'

等待

对不同的人，等待有不同的意义，不同的重要性，不同的感觉，不同的理由。

它能让人感到心痛，不耐烦，无聊，但人却不会轻易地放开它。
等待的事或人越久，我们对它的信任以及希望就越高。紧紧地握着它虽然更辛苦，更累，更寂寞，
但我们却不曾把‘松手’当成治疗自己的选择。为何呢？


因为，等待也可以是一种快乐，一种难以形容的幸福 :)

同类 - 孙燕姿

雨后的城市寂寞又狼狈
路边的座位它空着在等谁
我拉住时间它却不理会
有没有别人跟我一样很想被安慰
风停了又吹我忽然想起谁
天亮了又黑我过了好几岁
心暖了又灰
世界
有时候孤单的很需要另一个同类
爱收了又给我们都不太完美
梦作了又碎我们有几次机会
去追
不晓得为什么爱又稀少又昂贵
云在半空中被微风剪碎
回忆也许美可是正在飞走对不对
天亮了又黑我过了好几岁

-
当你觉得孤单的时候，并不是因为没有人在乎你，而或许是因为你宁愿自己面对面前的负担也不要让身旁的人为你担心，为你牺牲。其实，让爱你的人知道你的痛，了解你的伤，对他们来说也是一种幸福。
信任，会给你勇气倾诉，会提醒你并不用独自面对所有的困难，会给你信心超越自己

一起加油吧 :)

明天以后

I like to feel Happy :D

Have faith in your dream :D

If you just had one question, what would you ask?
If you are going to leave and never come back, what would you tell?
If you have hurt someone, what would you say?
If you care for someone, what would you give?
If you need a listening ear, who would you turn to?
If you love someone, what would you do?

-

-
i'm keeping the faith this strong, this high, this awesome.
i'll let you see.

A Jigsaw Puzzle without the Last Piece

the above is to
TO DARREN LEONG

Prints

The umbrellas are pretty right? :D

When I feel helpless, for that moment, the sense of loss and not knowing where to move on from is really awful and really insecure. It is as if I am in between losing it and having it.

快乐是 -

遇见 - 孫燕姿


快乐，不是靠巧合
快乐，不是靠运气
快乐，不是靠他
快乐，不是靠她
快乐，是靠自己的努力和付出
快乐，是靠自己的思维和毅力
快乐，是靠你

我只想对你说，你真的好勇敢，你真的好有勇气。
当你觉得孤单的时候，我愿意给你我的时间，我愿意借你我的肩膀，我愿意陪你走到你想要去的地方，我愿意静静地在旁边听你说所有的事情，我愿意陪你哭，陪你笑，陪你到终点。
当你觉得自己快要窒息而无法再往前走了，我愿意用我的幸福换来你的勇气。
我只希望你会幸福
我只希望你会很快乐，很快乐，很快乐，很快乐 :)

You Are My Sunshine :D

:)
I gotta study hard.
Because i don't wanna disappoint my sunshine :D

You are a Mutant

Set Fire To The Rain - Adele



I let it fall, my heart
And as it fell, you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands, they were strong, but my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you'd play, you would always win, always win

But I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

When laying with you I could stay there
Close my eyes, feel you here forever
You and me together, nothing is better

'Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you's play, you would always win, always win

But I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
When we fell, something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time

Sometimes I wake up by the door
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you

I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touch your face
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
When we fell, something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time, oh
Oh, no
Let it burn, oh
Let it burn
Let it burn

Lyrics from: http://www.metrolyrics.com/set-fire-to-the-rain-lyrics-adele.html

I turn your Flaws into Beauty

Introduced to me by Viviannnnn longggg ago :)
Awesome song :D

I had a reallyyyy awesome day out with LENA TOHO :D
THANK YOU GIRLLLLLLL :D
YOU MADE ME LAUGH TILL MY STOMACH HURT LESS TOOOOOO :D HEEE!!

The Awesome Phua Family Outing :D

hahhahhahahahahahhahhahahahahha :D It's really cute and niceeeee :D
4th June was the day i really cherish! :D

A few days back, Mummy asked me to choose a movie to watch on the coming Saturday, which was yesterday! :D
yup, i chose XMEN First Class :D obviouslyyyyyy right. cause Insidious is toooo scary and Gong Fu Xiong Mao is too kiddy Mama and Dadddd :D

We all met at Plaza Sing and ate dinner at Lao Bei Jing :D hahhahahh!
i went toilet 3 times throughout the whole dinner. -.-
bladder overload hahhah :D
foood was really awesome, thanks to Mum's finest selection :P
heehee!

And finally, highlight of the evening, XMEN FIRST CLASS :D
it's a really intriguing movie, with all the action, super powers :P, and moral values behind the show itself :D
I really have no idea how mum fell asleep in the cinema, and then came out and asked us all if we have just watched Transformers when she paid for the tickets =.=
hahahahahhhhahhahahhha XDXD

We had a niceee delicious supper at Rocher Dou Hua You Tiao toooo :D
hahhaha! :D

Classic, Cute, Average Family Outing? :D
I would say it is really special :D Because it has been really really long since we've spent such 'real time' together, without much work and studies getting in the way.
My dad often tells us to learn how to let go and to say no to certain things so as to be able to reach out for the things we cherish most in life. Sounds really logical, really easy, but the fact is, it is not.
Reason being, we're all afraid of the consequences of letting go and making sacrifices.

And i do not exclude myself from that league.

I know i still have a long road to continue, so i won't give up. Especially when i know you've always been looking over me :)
thank you :)

YAY! :D

Dreams don't come by easily

random thoughts
It really takes courage to dream big.
I want to be the kind of girl, the kind of person who can turn all turn all the impossible possible.
My dream, and largest goal in life, is to set up a family of my own, and live happily ever after :)
At 18, it really seems very far away.

:D hahaha :D

To: My Dearrrr Toho :D

PUSH ON, because that's when you see for yourself how strong you can be, more than you think you could, more than you expected yourself to be.

Life's not easy. And bad things happen together, somehow, so you can look forward to all the good things that will happen eventually. You are so genuine, someone so rare and special, such that i really feel sooo grateful that i can meet you in my life :D
When the hopes are overwhelming you, and you feel like you are gonna be blown away, i know it's really tough for you to stand still and steady while you overcome the strong wind. I'm really proud of you that you've pulled up the courage to tell youself to look on the brighter side, and be happy :) You're really awesome mannnn! :D
Keep moving on ok! :D
You know we are all here for you, and you know we really love you :) JIA YOU :D

Party Like It's Not A Birthday :D

haooooooooo :D
ahahaah. restlessness, motivation, procastination? what do all these count?
When Alevels are just about 150 days away?

LET'S KEEP GOING AND WALK DOWN THIS ROAD WITH ENTHUSIASM AND PRIDE.
WE CAN DO THIS OK! :D KEEEEEEP GOING :D
Alevels niaaaaa, sup sup suiiii! :P

JIA YOU
:D