Your Words

many thoughts went through my mind today. sooo many.
i think i miss you :/
and sometimes i wish i could turn back time and cherish you more than i did when you were here. Now, no longer do i have the courage to do anything like before.
so i can only miss you.

honestly, i am proud of you and extremely happy for you :D
i'm grateful that you created happy memories for me too :D
At times when i look back and recall the notsomanybutreallyniceeeee things that we did, everything still feels like a dream, a really sweet one heehee.

and now, life goes on, and i would always remember your encouragement, to jiayou and to not give up. thank you very much :)

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"Think Think Think" - Winnie the Pooh

I think i do not really understand myself.

Why do i feel like i am not being myself sometimes?
What does it even feels like to be myself?
How is it possible that my heart and emotions feel disconnected from my brain?
Why do i feel this tinge of fear and insecurity whenever i feel as if i am losing myself?
When all these happen, what should i do?

Although it's all about myself, i cannot seem to find any answers.

:D

COME ON

zhitingggggggggggg
please study

Power of -

when life seems fragile, we need strength to keep it from falling.
when your heart is aching, you need comfort and assurance that it will not last for long.
when you doubt yourself, you need confidence from people around you to have faith again.
It's not easy, but you have me, and i'll always be here, not as an important person in your life, but as a friend who will jia-hen-duo-you so that you can rely on, and you can talk to. because, when you said you cried, you made me feel like crying too :(
Life's never too short to do anything, it all depends on the choices you make, and your attitude towards them :) keep going :)

this post is dedicated with lots of love and sincerity from PZT to Desmond Ser ：)

Ohmytian

why do i have so so so many things to complete by tonight?
let's cry together :D

Integrity

why do we lose our sense of integrity at times?
why do i lose my sense of integrity?

i felt overwhelmed with guilt although i was probably not even given the rights to feel remorseful about it. Because the fact was, i cheated. right in your face huh -.-
& during the whole time, it did not cross my mind about being honest and the real
meaning behind doing a test.

Ms Ewe is right. She doesn't need us to do a test for show, but so that she can understand and see the areas which we are still unsure of. Yet, we didn't spare a thought for her. I did not spare a thought for her.
My satisfaction came first. To think about it now, this satisfaction is really small, and it made me ponder, was it worth it?

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Today's an eventful day! :) MY FIRST MORNING ANNOUNCEMENT, SYF announcement with Weijie the Awesomeeeee, Vectors 2 lecture :D:D, GPPPPPPPP tutorial which was awesome, Physics spa XD, EGT ;D, family day meeting ^^
& walked to the MRT with Christopher and KT :D
&& tooook the MRT with KT :D heeehee
&&& listened to Enchanted with KT :) heeheehee. Good life huh :D yeah :D

***

No.
i need to reflect
now

Unspoken Thoughts :)

At times, i really feel like boxing myself. facebook is horrible :( because it is addictive =.= aww man. how is brain so easily affected by this thing. Anyway, i am lagging behind and this is EQUALLY HORRIBLEEEE. jiayou zhiting :D push on! i keep telling myself this, and somehow i think it works :D:D heehee. because i start to smile to myself - craziness - and laugh to myself :O

i often wonder why people behave differently in front of different people, including myself. my tone, my speech, my thoughts, my actions, my attitude. They differ, although it may not be obvious to others, but i realise how they change when i speak to different people - my parents, brother, friends, teachers, strangers :D haahaa!

Perhaps it depends greatly on the impression i would like to people around me to have on me. that's why they tend to differ. is this what everyone always say, being ingenuine? such a characteristic of myself has inevitably made me doubt my principles and what i believe in - being sincere :) And very often, i get the impression that people think i am trying too hard :/
By putting myself down in such a way is so weird, and so not healthy? i have no idea why i am putting all these feelings into words now. of all times, why now? Haha :) But it seems like i have longed gotten used of feeling this way, hence i do not feel hurt or sad anymore :)

i guess this is all a blessing in disguise. Mummy used to say, "You get to experience so many things which others do not even have the chance to think about, so why dwell about things that make you feel upset and awful? Focus on the brighter things in life, smile at even the littlest thing that is given to you, because you never know of anyone out there who is yearning for what you have more than you can ever think of."

i'm proud to be an AJCian :)
it has been really long since I've updated YM :) YES I MISS YOU :)
2010 has been an awesome year, 2011 has been awesome tooo :D

what should you do when you feel irritated after telling someone time and time again to stop his/her actions but to no avail?

"I think a person's life is supposed to be like a DVD. You can see the version everyone else sees, or you can choose the director's cut - the way he wanted you to see it, before everything else got in the way."
Jodi Picoult, Nineteen Minutes :)

I'M A LUCKY PERSON :)

friendship is strength :D

THIS SONG REALLY MAKES MY HEART BEAT FASTER
AND somehow REMINDS ME OF A LOT OF THINGS :)
HAHAHHAH NICEEEE :)

:)

i will tell myself, to stop.
because i will get tired, i need to lead my life on,
i will become crazy.

It's not dying that i am afraid of.
It is not living in the first place.

你这个笨女孩
真是笨到极点啦
该怎么办呢
啊呀呀呀呀。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

it is really not easy :(
while i keep telling myself to find things to do to not brood over this issue,
my brain and heart seem to be meeting lots of obstacles while trying to
cooperate -.- is it because i do not know the reason? should i ask? should i wait?
should i just throw everything away? No.
it just doesn't work that way. ohwelllllllllll. what a sickening thing AHHHHHHH!
please give me an answer before i lose control.


give me a reason, before i blow your house down.

it feels so weird to feel so weird :)
hahahaha through you, i really got to experience a whole new world.
a world so wild, full of expectations, sometimes a little disappointment,
surprises, and, simple.
it's so simple. and it felt so real, so natural.
i guess i really have to thank you for this :)

keep smiling :)
like you are, always :)



CAUSE BABY YOU'RE A FIREWORK! :)

你要相信自己能够度过这一场考验。
他的出现让你做了一场很美，很幸福的梦。
当你醒了，当一切都结束了，他就会象风一样地从你的生命中消失，
象一只很漂亮的蝴蝶一样，轻轻地飞走。
在这时候，你或许会觉得有些心疼，伤心，失望，空虚，无助，但你不可以放弃哦！你不可以向这些让你这么难过的感情屈服，不可以因为累了而决定停止往前走的脚步，不可以因为想念他而埋头流泪，不可以因为自己的心情而使身旁所有爱你的人为了你担心。

坚强， 对自己要有信心，加油!! :)
你绝对OK的！！！

SOMETHING BOUT' LOVE
by DAVID ARCHULETA :)


:) busy period! jiayou everyone!!!!!! :) things will go well!!! :)
because we're all in this together :D